My Salient Symptoms - as of 2007
Listed below are the symptoms I suffer from
    1) Ability to Express Apropriate Emotions
    2) Depression
    3) Dexterity
    4) Flexibility
    5) Incontinance
    6) Mental Agility
    7) Strength
    8) tremor
    9) Speech
Some Explanation

I should say at this point that I donot think that any of these symptoms, however bad they have become so far has lead me to activly cdonsider suicide, although, believe me, I can understand people that do
    Ability to Express Apropriate Emotions (0-100; poor - good)
    this ia a weired one - I find it hard to laugh when I'm happy - often I cry - not because I suddenly feel sad but because I simply start crying. this happens to such an extent Lina often has to ask 'are you really crying - or are you ok?'

    Depression ( 0-100; good - poor)
    Here I am not talking about 'I'm really fed up' but total lack of joy, a lack of ability to comunicate with people important to me and a feeling that I cannot cope with the 'things that have to be done' - like renewing the tv license. A feeling that one is 'out of control' and a 'panic' ensues where one can only see the things that make it hard to complete the task in hand

    Dexterity ( 0-100; pooor - good)
     Such things as holding a spoon; tieing ones shoelaces; writing; undoing small screws and putting plugs in sockets become difficult and some times impossible. Always my left hand is better than my right

    Flexibility ( 0-100; poor - good)
     When I am getting dressed in the morning I sit on the bed - How far I can raise my feet off the ground in order to put them through the holes in my pants and likewise the legs on my trousers is a good indicator of how well my day will go. the morning is usually the worst and I sometimes have difficulty walking at all.
    the ability to raise my legs obviously impacts my ability to get up the stairs and mostly these days I can only go upstairs a stair at a time. It must be two years since I was able to ascend the stairs without hauling myself up using the banister rail as I do now.
    As with my dexterity my left side is better than my right meaning sometimes, when I do set off to go upstairs I go: left foot, together; left foot together and so on...

    Incontinance (0-100; good - poor)
     For some years now (5'ish)I have had difficulty expressing the last drops of my urine when I go to the toilet and I have noticed that I have to go, when I do, more urgently. the problem here is, without really planning to, I drink too little water - although I never have been thirsty -witness the day when I was about 21, when I walked about 10 miles; ascended about 1000m in a temp of about 28 degrees and drank 250ml of water!

    Mental Agility ( 0-100 poor - good)
     It is easier to say what I mean by lack of mental agility. Sometimes I get a feeling of being so overwhelmed by the necessity to make descisions that I simply stop talking. It becomes too much effort to say anything.

    Strength ( 0-100; poor - good)
     this is coupled to Flexability - If you have the flexability to raise your legfrom one stair to the next you then have to have enough strength to take your body weight onto the leg that is in front. To a greater or lesser degree this can be translated to how mugh you then 'haul' yourself up the stairs using the banister rail

    tremor ( 0-100; good - poor)
     Although I do not suffer from 'essential tremor' that my friend and colleague Andy (now retired - as of 1st. April 2008) did I do suffer from my eyes trembleing which makes close work harder
    Speech ( 0-100; poor - good)
     When I am tired I cannot enuciate my words correctly - I do not know how I managed to forget this one - more a reflection of how little talking I do these days - Hi Ho :(but I added this Friday 23 05 2008)
    An alternate, more succinct, table can be viewed here

    WEEK SELECTOR Wk1| WK9 | WK17 | Wk33| Wk39| Wk41|






    Appropriate
    Emotions    		 Depression Dexterity Flexability Incontanance Mental
    Agility         		Strength tremor Speech .............................COMMENT...........................
    Wk39
    Wed 24 Dec, 2008 14.08    		 55 32 52 53 22 57 53 56 57
    comment; did 1x1 with one two stair on right foot and did this page...
    Wk39
    Wed 24 Dec, 2008 19.58    		 58 30 54 57 22 58 55 56 57
    Have just ascend stair 1x1 then 2x2 done stretching exercises and lifted Lai-yen to tun off the light - NOT BAD!!...
    Wk39
    Fri 26 Dec, 2008 10.55    		 56 30 54 52 23 58 53 56 57
    Had a Poo yesterday at 23:00 - Christmas present! and since the last one was on Friday 19th I was due one... this morning dawned a one stair day and at the time of writing I am in my dressing gown.Lina pulled out 'all the stops' yesterday and made christmas lunch - a resounding success!.
    Wk39
    Sat 27 Dec, 2008     		56 30 54 57 23 58 55 57 58
    Spent a large part of the day with Lai-Yen and doing work.Ascended stairs 2x2 this am and by mid day and now 2x2 so not bad.Temperature down last Night ( 4°C) and again tonight so should be ok.
    Wk40
    Sun 28 Dec, 2008 10.25    		 56 30 54 53 23 58 53 56 57
    Got up at 09:00 - had to hold legs to dress. Came upstairs 1x1 and had to use hands to lift legs twice.Now I will do some work...
    Wk40
    Sun 28 Dec, 2008 16.25    		 57 30 55 57 22 59 56 57 58
    This table was having problems 'jumping' to an id that was within the table. Going to the start (wk39) was ok but then going to the 'week selector' then going to wk40 was a problem. The javascript controlling the tage format was fallling over. this was sorted by replacing all TDs with tds and all was then ok (try it!).I saved this table and will now try and do some work - a small hiyatus being caused by a trip to Dunsop bridge to feed the ducks..
    Wk40
    Mon 29 Dec, 2008 10.10    		 57 35 53 53 23 57 53 55 55
    Lina often forgets to turn on the monitor we have, that links my room, that is out of 'ear shot' to the upstairs landing. Last night was no exception and although I shouted to attract her attention did not manage to 'raise' her. Result being I spent a rather fearfull night as I was worried about falling over - 9 hours is a long time to be lieing on the floor if I do fall over which, fortunately, I did not... I am now going to 'blog' using my works PC
    Wk40
    Fri 2 Jan, 2009 02.38    		 57 30 54 53 23 59 53 56 56
    Went to Moore Park yesterday and spent 40 minutes with Lia-Yen and Lina. Came back home and actually could move in study without clinging on to desks etc. - benefits of 3°C !! - roll on.Now off to bed via fruit salad downstairs. Filled in blog too for today
    Wk40
    Sat 3 Jan, 2009 21.16    		 57 30 54 54 23 58 52 58 56
    Poo at 15:00. had felt really lousey up to then and went out to Rascals; came back and 2x2 so not bad..

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