My Salient Symptoms - as of 2007
Listed below are the symptoms I suffer from
    1) Ability to Express Apropriate Emotions
    2) Depression
    3) Dexterity
    4) Flexibility
    5) Incontinance
    6) Mental Agility
    7) Strength
    8) Tremor
    9) Speech
Some Explanation

I should say at this point that I donot think that any of these symptoms, however bad they have become so far has lead me to activly cdonsider suicide, although, believe me, I can understand people that do
    Ability to Express Apropriate Emotions (0-10; poor - good)
    This ia a weired one - I find it hard to laugh when I'm happy - often I cry - not because I suddenly feel sad but because I simply start crying. This happens to such an extent Lina often has to ask 'are you really crying - or are you ok?'

    Depression ( 0-10; good - poor)
    Here I am not talking about 'I'm really fed up' but total lack of joy, a lack of ability to comunicate with people important to me and a feeling that I cannot cope with the 'things that have to be done' - like renewing the tv license. A feeling that one is 'out of control' and a 'panic' ensues where one can only see the things that make it hard to complete the task in hand

    Dexterity ( 0-10; pooor - good)
     Such things as holding a spoon; tieing ones shoelaces; writing; undoing small screws and putting plugs in sockets become difficult and some times impossible. Always my left hand is better than my right

    Flexibility ( 0-10; poor - good)
     When I am getting dressed in the morning I sit on the bed - How far I can raise my feet off the ground in order to put them through the holes in my pants and likewise the legs on my trousers is a good indicator of how well my day will go. The morning is usually the worst and I sometimes have difficulty walking at all.
    The ability to raise my legs obviously impacts my ability to get up the stairs and mostly these days I can only go upstairs a stair at a time. It must be two years since I was able to ascend the stairs without hauling myself up using the banister rail as I do now.
    As with my dexterity my left side is better than my right meaning sometimes, when I do set off to go upstairs I go: left foot, together; left foot together and so on...

    Incontinance (0-10; good - poor)
     For some years now (5'ish)I have had difficulty expressing the last drops of my urine when I go to the toilet and I have noticed that I have to go, when I do, more urgently. The problem here is, without really planning to, I drink too little water - although I never have been thirsty -witness the day when I was about 21, when I walked about 10 miles; ascended about 1000m in a temp of about 28 degrees and drank 250ml of water!

    Mental Agility ( 0-10 poor - good)
     It is easier to say what I mean by lack of mental agility. Sometimes I get a feeling of being so overwhelmed by the necessity to make descisions that I simply stop talking. It becomes too much effort to say anything.

    Strength ( 0-10 poor - good)
     This is coupled to Flexability - If you have the flexability to raise your legfrom one stair to the next you then have to have enough strength to take your body weight onto the leg that is in front. To a greater or lesser degree this can be translated to how mugh you then 'haul' yourself up the stairs using the banister rail

    Tremor ( 0-10; good - poor)
     Although I do not suffer from 'essential tremor' that my friend and colleague Andy (now retired - as of 1st. April 2008) did I do suffer from my eyes trembleing which makes close work harder
    Speech ( 0-10; poor - good)
     When I am tired I cannot enuciate my words correctly - I do not know how I managed to forget this one - more a reflection of how little talking I do these days - Hi Ho :( but I added this Friday 23 05 2008
    An alternate, more succinct, table can be viewed here
    Weekly Idex:
    208-2009
    Wk1| WK9 | WK17 | Wk33| Wk39| Wk41|
    2009-2010
    Wk01|

     
    ........Date........ Appropriate Emotions DepressionDexterity Flexability Incontanance Mental Agility Strength Tremor Speech ...............................Comment...............................
    Mon 07-Apr-2008 15:41
    6
    4
    5
    6
    5
    6
    6
    5
    A good day
    Tue 8 Apr, 2008 08:52
    6
    3
    5
    7
    5
    6
    5
    5
    Starting OK - More Flexible but prehaps not as strong
    Tue 8 Apr, 2008 14:56
    6
    3
    6
    7
    4
    6
    5
    6
    Got less strong at manchester therapy center but left hand held up ok back to Preston
    Tue 8 Apr, 2008 18.12
    6
    3
    6
    7
    4
    6
    6
    6
    At this time in the evening - yesterday I was asleep!!!
    Wed 9 Apr, 2008 15.42
    5
    4
    6
    7
    4
    7
    6
    5
    Started well; Coped well with changes
    Thu 10 Apr, 2008 08.23
    6
    3
    6
    5
    4
    7
    5
    5
    Well - about the same as yesterday am - wee will see how going to Manchester in pm goes
    Thu Apr 10, 2008 16.20
    5
    3
    5
    5
    3
    6
    6
    5
    So far So good! Interesting to go down pm - maybe the way to go-
    Fri 11 Apr, 2008 10.53
    6
    3
    5
    6
    3
    6
    6
    5
    As yesterday - but I have also done the backup tapes! cool
    Weekend back to index
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    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    Basicaly OK - see the blog
    Mon 14 Apr, 2008 09.18
    6
    3
    5
    6
    4
    6
    5
    5
    wee have started ok - we will see how it goes
    Wed 16 Apr, 2008 08.45
    5
    3
    5
    6
    4
    6
    5
    5
    After a bad start - lexability 4-ish I have recovered well
    Wed 16 Apr, 2008 16.29
    6
    3
    5
    6
    4
    6
    5
    6
    Eyes seem worse but ok in other respects
    Fri 18 Apr, 2008 15.51
    5
    3
    5
    6
    4
    5
    5
    5
    going to start rating out of 100 since it will give me more ' leeway'
    Fri 18 Apr, 2008 16.11
    50
    30
    49
    60
    40
    60
    50
    49
    Started ratings 0-100
    Weekend back to index
    10
    70
    10
    10
    60
    10
    20
    50
    Sunday12:00-Mon12:00 sore throat - paralyed!
    Tuesday
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    -
    Wed 23 Apr, 2008 08.56
    30
    25
    50
    64
    39
    55
    40
    55
    when I say 'paralyed' I coould only move the extremities of my limbs but otherwise could not move - Very Glad I had put my incontinence pads on!!-
    Thu 24 Apr, 2008 08.49
    40
    30
    40
    55
    38
    45
    35
    50
    after a very slow start I have improved a bit - can one stair at a time and walk with difficulty. It is wierd that although I felt 'good' yesterday and have shaken off my sore throat I now feel tired and needed to struggle getting dressed this morning becasause I could not lift my feet
    Fri 25 Apr, 2008 14.55
    50
    30
    40
    55
    38
    50
    50
    55
    it is 24 degrees - too hot for me but I cn just about function - I'll have to remember to ask SP about my accomodation...
    Weekend back to index
    50
    30
    48
    57
    38
    55
    50
    55
    Good Weekend
    Mon 28 Apr, 2008 08:57
    53
    30
    50
    57
    37
    55
    51
    55
    Started OK and dressed easily in morning
    Wed 30 Apr, 2008 09.01
    20
    40
    30
    30
    50
    55
    40
    55
    Last Night had difficulty - my strength to move was very low - better this morning and even bettter now (10.11)
    Thu 1 May, 2008 10:44
    50
    30
    50
    55
    37
    55
    50
    55
    Eary to Bed Early to Rise - Got up early (05:00); got dressed OK helped bath Lai-yen; got 'Crouchinng Tiger; Hidden Dragon' transcoding; Nice One!
    Daily blog!? here
    Fri 2 May, 2008 11.25 back to index
    50
    30
    52
    55
    45
    55
    50
    56
    Good Sleep Goodmorning
    Tue 6 May, 2008 14:27
    51
    28
    52
    50
    45
    55
    49
    50
    Slow getting started this am - could not dress myself easily but mentally ok
    Thu 8 May, 2008 15:53
    49
    28
    52
    54
    45
    54
    50
    48
    26 degrees - better than yesterday at this time
    Fri 9 May, 2008 12:05
    52
    30
    50
    50
    45
    54
    48
    52
    After a slow start - a bit better
    Sat 10 May, 2008 20:38
    53
    31
    49
    52
    50
    54
    51
    53
    Day Started well but did not improve as much as I hoped - BE THANKFULL FOR EVERYTHING GIVEN
    Sun 11 May, 2008 07.53
    54
    30
    50
    52
    52
    54
    51
    52
    Need to try my flexability - do it now
    Sun 11 May, 2008 23.15 back to index
    53
    30
    48
    50
    50
    54
    50
    52
    Go to bed
    Mon 12 May, 2008 16:07
    52
    30
    49
    52
    45
    50
    50
    52
    Mustn't Grumble :)
    Wed 14 May, 2008 00:36
    53
    30
    49
    52
    45
    50
    48
    51
    Considering I have been asleep since 17:45 I'm quite good
    Wed 14 May, 2008 13.55
    53
    50
    50
    53
    42
    50
    49
    51
    started ok stayed the same but now office too hot at 23 degrees
    Fri 16 May, 2008 10.59
    55
    50
    50
    48
    40
    51
    48
    49
    Could not easily dress in morning and felt hard walking but ok now
    Fri 16 May, 2008 13.20
    56
    30
    50
    49
    39
    55
    43
    44
    Went to the car wash at dinner-time and removed all the old cardinal Allen cd's so now I'm 'shot through'
    Sat 17 May, 2008 08.26
    56
    30
    54
    50
    39
    55
    43
    43
    Did work for Martin Last night and had fish for dinner at 21:00 ish
    Sun 18 May, 2008 22.31
    56
    30
    55
    55
    50
    56
    50
    50
    Slow starting but OK now and improved this page
    Mon 19 May, 2008 07.24
    56
    30
    54
    54
    50
    56
    48
    52
    Started a bit slow but dressed myself and put one foot in my pants - so improvement over yesterday
    Mon 19 May, 2008 10.29
    55
    30
    53
    54
    50
    57
    50
    52
    OK still listened to mayor of casterbridge cool
    Mon 19 May, 2008 18.09
    57
    28
    53
    58
    39
    58
    55
    53
    Came into house tonight without holding door frame to 'pull' me in holding books!
    Tue 20 May, 2008
    50
    30
    53
    58
    39
    54
    50
    54
    A bit 'tottery' starting although could raise foot to put pants on-
    Tue 20 May, 2008 14.24
    50
    30
    53
    58
    35
    55
    48
    55
    Entry above was done at 08:30 - having been to Manchester and felt fine, now not sure... but stats say I should be Ok...
    Tue 20 May, 2008 18.27
    50
    30
    53
    59
    34
    55
    52
    56
    Came in to house again without pulling myself in good one
    Wed 21 May, 2008 15.57
    49
    30
    54
    60
    33
    55
    56
    Started this AM ; dressed myself; walked into MS Center OK - good day
    Thu 22 May, 2008 01.53
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    50
    54
    33
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    50
    50
    Got too hot in car yesterday evening and got home and slept from 18{00 to 22:30 now tired and off to bed
    Thu 22 May, 2008 07.18
    50
    30
    50
    62
    33
    55
    51
    48
    started ok - flex enough to get feet into pant
    Thu 22 May, 2008 15.52
    50
    30
    54
    33
    54
    52
    39
    At work now - feel OK
    Fri 23 May, 2008 10.44
    50
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    54
    35
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    50
    45
    52
    At work now - feel OK
    Mon 26 May, 2008 19.23
    45
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    50
    50
    35
    54
    45
    50
    53
    Had a good day at Dunsop Bridge - had a long talk with an excelent biker chap from harrogate Lai-Yen chased the ducks... Love him
    Tue 27 May, 2008 09.02
    47
    30
    -
    56
    33
    55
    48
    50
    55
    Started well - dressed without Problem; flexability a bit down - one stair emotions bit - bit strange but generally OK
    Wed 28 May, 2008 16.13
    47
    30
    50
    56
    30
    55
    48
    48
    56
    started well - dressed - got legs into pants day ok...
    Sat 31 May, 2008 07.11
    30
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    48
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    51
    42
    49
    56
    hardly walk; wind of change at work; pissed off - but wrote this!
    Sat 31 May, 2008 20.47
    30
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    35
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    56
    Went to find whitewell again; went to beacon fell by mistake; Lai-Yen played with the football; I went for a walk (10 paces) with the poles. Ended up on boomboom cars at rascals and came home for 14:00 and I slept untill 18:00. Lai-Yen came to play and we sang one two three four five once I caught a fish alive and he counted to four for the first time! I think it's time to start a new page
    Sat 31 May, 2008 23.17
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    Off to bed now having done the next page in readyness for the start of the new week

    from
    © Richard Cornford 2004